Two posts in one day?
You know why, right? Because I am home watching soap operas and eating bon bons all day. haha I crack myself up sometimes...only in your dreams Days of Our Lives.
Yesterday was my birthday as I entered my last year of my 20's. It was kind of sad until I looked back on the last year and thought...what a ride! I wonder what 29 has in store for me? Brandon asked me what I wanted for my birthday and without hesitation I said "An Ambien + a night in a hotel". In other words, we have a baby that gets up about 4 times in the night and only sleeps about 2-3 hours at a time.
So last night I said 10 Hail Mary's with an extra line of "and please let Lainey sleep for 8-10 straight hours" and crossed my fingers that she was going to give me an extra special birthday present.
At 5:30am Brandon woke me up and that is when I realized that my sweet baby Lainey slept for 6 straight hours!!! YEA!! I was so excited and proud of our little girl until I realized that the reason that she slept for that long is because I forgot to turn on the monitor!!! DOH! After a midnight feeding, she woke up 15 minutes later and I said to myself...I am just going to shut off the monitor...Zzzzzz....for 5 minutes...Zzzzzz...and then I will go check on her....Zzzzzzz. If she is still crying, then I will go up and rock her back to sleep....Zzzzzzzzzzz's *Insert Snore*.....Zzzzzzzzzz.....
Needless to say I FLEW up the stairs, checked her pulse, cried a little bit, cussed myself out, and then realized that she was ok. I, however, was not as I felt guilty about it all day. I just know that she is somehow going to use this against us when she is 16. "Do you remember that one time you let me cry it out all night Mom?" "That is why I am quitting school and joining the cast of Jersey Shore!" (Please God, do not let that show run another 16 years!)
Here's to a good nights sleep with the monitor ON tonight!
-Manda
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Talk about feeling guilty...think how you would feel leaving your 3 yr. old at the county fair??? After dark???? With all the carnival characters lurking around??? Thinking all the time, you were with your dad and Justin - and them thinking you were with me???? My life passed in front of me thinking I was the worst mom in the world...more traumatic for me than you as you found a little friend, who had very caring parents that took you in until I could race back to town to find you. So glad I found you so that you could give me such a beautiful grand girlie..... that I promise I will never leave at the fair!!!!
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DeleteI'm laughing at "an ambien and a night at a hotel"-- I'd still take that for any present, any holiday. :) Here's to more sleepful nights ahead...I'm sure she'll start sleeping better soon!
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